Archie isn't easy

I'm trying to get connected with the father of my kids who has them in his custody but it doesn't seem he's attentive to me nor what was I thinking that since I lost all control of myself especially in my head been hacking down that things I say because of responding to the voices in my head. Well coming to hear out a voice over the head seems like a God's plan for me to suffer through. I'm saying why is it that Archie's phone number seem dead too. I been dialing it for years that when I called him over a new number, I saw a missed call from him and when I called him back, he just said hello then I said hello then he hang up. I'm saying I don't know which one to believe but really, God just want to hurt me so bad.